One goal

After a bumpy start to the weekend, I am aiming for one thing: having as much fun as I can in the span of a long weekend!

Friday was a pretty relaxing day — yoga, a life coaching session, arts and crafts to make the tackiest sign ever for my friend’s soccer game, etc. So chill that I had a peanut butter sandwich for dinner. Yeah, I did just spend 6 weeks learning how to cook in food science, but whatever! I had a hankering.

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After the soccer game, I thought I was going to go to bed early. I wanted to whip up some puppy chow for my friend’s birthday, so I did. I didn’t want to eat too much and give myself a tummy ache, but I did. And then I got to thinking, and you know what happens when I think.

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Epiphanies…

I spent a lot of time lately stressing over whether or not I’m skipping too many workouts. Over whether or not I should be eating less processed food, less beer, more whole grains, less dairy, whatever. I just felt my mind racing for most of the last week. I think what I realized after overdoing it on something as obviously not “healthy” as this puppy chow and doing it in my apartment, alone, is that the day to day choices aren’t the ones that hurt me. I eat a mostly healthy diet. I need to keep that in mind and not get hung up on the details.

I also think I came to realize (after a lot of thinking and a sugar high that kept me up for quite a while) that I really like to focus on the outcome and not so much on the little things, but it’s the little things that matter and the little things that I can control. If I want to change something big, I need to change the little things to make it happen. If I want to get to my happy weight, that isn’t going to happen just by weighing less or more. It’s by definition going to happen by changing the behaviours that I know aren’t serving me! I’m pretty excited about this. In specific, I want to address a few things (my pack a day gum habit, the giant coffees I love, the mindless eating — think iPad, cell phone, television trifecta, etc.). Trying to eat healthier for me right now isn’t going to be about perfecting my protein/carb ratio or choosing the “right” foods — it’s going to be about finding balance with my food choices but making sure that I feed myself in a healthy, nurturing manner. And that sounds manageable!

I had a nice chit chat with Alysha yesterday at the beach. She shared something with me about this whole realization business. When I used the word “failed” and said that I’m beginning to see my failures are lessons, she mentioned the concept of “falling forward”. Love. I get it. Yes, I fell. But I fell forward, closer to the healthier and happier person I’m becoming! Amen to that.

Yesterday was all around awesome. I was not about to let that little fall bring me down or keep me there. I got right back on track with healthy eats, forgave myself and chose to go to yoga instead of punishing myself through a workout in the hot hot heat, and had a lovely day at the beach in Sarnia.  In the evening, I met up for a few drinks with my friends and even though I “wasted” 8 dollars on a second beer that I obviously would have been on the floor if I’d drank (I tried!), I got to see a hella pretty sunset so it was worth it!

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If there’s an appropriate way to eat a banana in one of these photos, this is not it.

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rock star!

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I had a hankering for a burger. I threw together a zucchini/pineapple mix and it came out oh so deliciously!

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I really can’t say no to corn on the cob! It’s summer!

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Now that I’m up and fed (I had a yogurt mixed with some cereal from my mom’s cabinet — it’s a nice change since I’ve been avoiding cereal for a few weeks and kind of miss it), it’s time for our Canada Day tradition — getting as many people out on their bikes as possible, trying to stay together as a group, and rushing around to get to the parade on time. No matter how early we go, we’re never back early enough. It’s kind of fun, and this is my fourth year doing this I think. Later I’ll be sailing away for my friend’s birthday and then catching the fireworks. Did I mention my main goal is having as much fun as possible this weekend? I’m going to go make good on that…

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rabbit food comeback!

What are you up to this weekend?
Do you have a Canada Day or 4th of July tradition?

PS: Happy Canada Day (or 4th of July, early!)!

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TGIF Canada Day

I COULD do a Canada day theme here, but I’m not going to. Only because I bookmarked a lot of awesome this weekend and because I’m not that festive. Though Christmas is only 179 days away and the fact that I know that makes me a weirdo festive person.

Anyways, here’s this week’s run down:

5 songs I can’t get enough of 

5. One More Night – Maroon 5

4. Both of Us – BOB/Taylor Swift

3. Old Pine – Ben Howard

2. Payphone remix – Maroon 5 (PS I LOVE suggestions for spin songs)

1.  Wide Awake – Katy Perry

4 Crossfit-related posts that caught my eye

These are just posts that I bookmarked that just so happened to be about Crossfit, cuz it was on my mind. Maybe it was the link to the 10 seriously fit chicks of crossfit slideshow (or the desire I have to be this strong physically) on Shape.com that I found on Carrots n Cake or maybe the searching for bootcamp inspiration, or whatever. At any rate…

4. Swimming, Crossfit style – squats and swimming? I’m in. This sheet’s full of ideas!

3. Tina’s Crossfit Q&A II post this week was informative. I love reading about how she pairs it with running and her take on Paleo and all that good stuff. The links to her older posts are easy to find on this page too so there’s plenty of reading for you!

2. Like I said I’m interested in how Crossfit fits with endurance sports. Crossfit Endurance has good info on how to get started on their website.

1. Along the same vein, there was an article about how Crossfit can benefit triathletes on Active.com (this is probably the quickest way to get sucked into the internet for hours–besides pinterest, of course). Proper body mechanics, identifying/addressing weaknesses, building strength/power/agility/speed, and building true functional strength are amongst the suggested benefits. They all sound good to me!

3 articles about eating worth digging into

Bad pun, good reads:

3. Ask Michael Pollan a question about food. I love his answers. I love him. Reading this is refreshing and a good reminder of common sense and how we should approach our food choices. Love.

2. 100 Days of Real Food’s “Why Cut Processed Food” post. Need a reason to cut some of the crap? Here are 10 good ones!

1. “Shoot for progress, not perfection” on Everyday Fitness. I’m not sure what led me to this article, but I liked it. I think it applies to any lifestyle change and hits some important points and lends some good tips about how to leave perfectionism out of the equation:

1. Replace “I aim for perfection,” with “I aim for progress”.

2. Instead of saying “I wasn’t perfect,” proclaim proudly “I did the best I could, given the constraints and restrictions of my life.”

3. Substitute “but” with “and” when you’re describing your journey.

4. Celebrate every ounce of progress you make.

5. Pound perfection out of your lifestyle habits.

2 borrowed ideas I’d like to get in on

2. Tina posted about her fitness bucket list today. I was so inspired by her board! I can’t wait to make one (maybe when I get around to my vision board?)

1. Jello shots in fruit wedges. I brought up my pudding shots with a friend today and she mentioned that she’d made these before. I thought they’d be hard to do but when she explained how to do them and when I found a site with directions, it suddenly became easier in my mind. Adding it to the list of things to try!

1 worth laughing at 

It’s okay since I updated my inspiration reel — you can get your cheese all in one place!

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I’m gonna argue that when you are a quote queen, it’s okay and it is a bit about quotes about life. 🙂

Have a great weekend!

What are you loving this week?
Do you like any of these songs? Have any suggestions for me?
Do you do crossfit? Why/why not?

Life is too short to be anything but happy

For a while—as in since last week, when I graduated. I’ve felt so out of whack and I know I’m getting back on the right track, but what is that track?

After taking this Food Science course and diving into this Foods and Nutrition Program (my third go at it, really), I know what I don’t want–to finish it. I’ve known that for a few weeks, and I’ve been thinking about my options (but you guys know I’ve been pretty busy).

While nothing is set in stone, I think I’m starting to wrap my head around a rough idea of where I’d like to head and of the kind of future I want to create for myself.

A year ago, I was sure I was going to be in Journalism school in september. Since then, I’ve realized I want to do more than write. I love to write. I will be a writer. I will keep pitching stories, blogging, and writing my heart out. I don’t need a master’s degree to do that.

A month ago, I was pretty certain I was going to be a dietitian. I knew I wanted to help people lead healthier lifestyles and I liked the idea of helping athletes and people working through eating disorders.

Journalist.

Dietitian.

Safe.

Today, I don’t know what I want to be when I grow up, but I’m forming a picture of what it’s going to look like without needing a label. No offence to anyone who has known what they’ve wanted to be since they were 5 and have come out of it with a great professional degree or something like that, but that hasn’t been working for me. I’m done sticking to the conventional just for the sake of feeling secure. At my graduation, the speaker mentioned something about how times have changed. Making money is tough. Finding “a job” is tough. He told us to take every opportunity. Things can seem overwhelming, but when you look at it as a world full of opportunities instead of feeling overwhelmed, you see that there is so much freaking potential that you can’t help but get excited.

I really never thought that I’d be so confused about what I want to do with myself. If you don’t know me or you can’t get vibes from my blog, I’m a stubborn person. I know where I’m headed, or at least I like to pretend I do. So this is a big shift for me, but it’s one that I know is going to lead me to a happier career and life at the end of it all.

I know it’s cheesy, but it’s true: “If you find a job you love, you’ll never work a day of your life.” It’s also true that by deciding that I’m going to work towards a happy holistic life instead of just securing a career, I’m just embracing all the awesome that I’m entitled to in a new way. I did it with my body–I don’t have to force myself to lose weight or to have perfect abs before I can be happy. In the same way, I don’t have to make sure the tI’ve got a set career path and plan that is stable before I can start living. Cuz FYI, life is flying by and I think the point is kind of to enjoy this whole process, right? Thanks for that realization, recovery!

So enough with the big thinking and rambling…what the heck am I going to do next?

I started to figure this out by thinking about my options and by talking it through with a lot of helpful listening ears. I started to look for examples of people living the kinds of lives–active, inspiring, engaging–that I want to and to take notes or to ask questions of what they’re doing. The truth is, they’re just following their bliss. That seems to be the key.

Right now, what’s making my heart sing most is:

  • teaching fitness
  • blogging and writing in general
  • rounding up cheesy quotes
  • yoga
  • reading, especially about nutrition, eating disorder recovery, and self help
  • working with my life coach
Things I considered for the coming year:
  • working as a fitness professional
  • going back to Western and taking some more kin courses and finishing my writing certificate
  • looking for a job somewhere exciting (mountains, anyone?)
  • applying to teacher’s college in the states or australia
  • applying for my masters in kin or in sports nutrition somewhere
  • pursuing the registered holistic nutritionist designation from the Canadian School of Natural Nutrition
  • going somewhere to get my 200 hour yoga teacher training
  • going on an NOLS trip – throwing myself into the wilderness, essentially
  • signing up for a program at Rhodes College, where my life coach went
  • taking violin lessons and getting far enough so that I can teach little kiddies how to play – I was pretty close, but my theory could use some work!
And to be totally honest, I want to do them all. Luckily I had a good reminder come my way from my mother:
(at once)
I also came to a big realization: if you’re meant to do something, YOU WILL. It doesn’t matter when. There isn’t that pressure. If you have to force yourself to do something, why are you doing it (career, but also training, etc.)? The things on that list that I really truly want to do will get done. The ones that don’t really matter won’t. It’s as simple as that.
So what’s my next step?
With a disclaimer that I am 100% allowed to change my mind, my plan is to work away at an independent study in sports sociology this fall while I do the registered holistic nutrition program (in London) on a part time basis and work as much as I can in fitness. I want to teach spin and bootcamp and I’d like to keep training with triathlon club. I’m going to think about doing an energy exchange at Yoga Shack, but if I’m too busy, I’ll keep yoga as purely something I do for the sake of doing. I’m going to see how things go and where I can work in fitness and my motto is to take opportunities that call out to me but say no to the ones that just don’t feel right (if it’s not a hell yes, it’s a hell no). I’m going to keep blogging about all of the healthy living I do and I’m going to keep on writing (freelancing, volunteering at the Gazette, etc.). I’m hoping that when I’m done with the RHN program in two years, I can do one of the coaching programs at Rhodes. I know I want to help people and I think the programs would work together to give me the kind of training and experience I need to make positive change. I also think they’ll give me the information I want to write the kinds of articles and blogs that will do the same. I also know that it sounds a little hippie to say that I’m going to be a freelance writer, holistic nutritionist and life coach who also teaches fitness, but that’s what I’m feeling right now.
So if you were hoping I’d have a simple answer in the form of “When I grow up, I’m going to ______________,” no such luck!
I know that giving myself this end vision — I picture that life coach writer nutritionist fitness instructor, I see her as a slightly older, stronger, only more awesome version of myself — and making it as vivid as I can (she lives in a house in the mountains and has two chocolate labs and drives a nissan murano, btw) is motivating. I have a yoga instructor who often says to leave the picture in the mirror out of it and to see where you want to go and then make it happen, and I’m definitely feeling the application here.
When you can see it, you can feel it, and you can connect to it. And when I see that version of me, I feel so full of energy, happy, and all that good stuff. If you think I’m crazy, I’m telling you: you’re missing out. That’s kind of why I want to be some form of a coach–to help people connect to this feeling of being motivated and energized and pulled by the positive things in life. After recovery from my eating disorder, I know how rough things can get. This is like a second shot at life, and I feel like I need to spread the word and shout it from the rooftops even if some people look at me like I’m a new age hippie or something. I swear–I’m not high on anything (my friend summed up how people sometimes look at us pretty well)–except life itself. Yeah, I just said that!
So that was a whole lot of words and a whole lot of cheese, but it needed to be said! You better believe there’s a bucket list coming and a vision board in the works. I’ve been jotting down random things I want to do before I die on napkins and business cards and in random notes on my phone. This is all good. It keeps me thinking about the positive things that I want to do. Think big. Dream big. Be bold. All that good stuff.
For a really long time, my life was about living small and about listening to Ed. It was about food, calories, workouts, and all that stuff. Then it hit me, slowly, but hard: this is all there is. I’m going to die some day. Like that’s pretty morbid, but it’s true. There’s no point in doing something that doesn’t make me happy. There’s no point in not doing what I want to do or in at least trying to figure out what that is. This could be a post in itself, so I’m going to sum things up:
Hence this blog. Hence my whole outlook and approach to life.
Anddddd smile.
Have you ever changed your mind about school or your career?
What’s the number one thing on your bucket list?

If you’re working, are you doing the job you thought you would when you were younger?
Do you ever think of yourself in 10 years? What’s it look like?

A blur

I’m surprised I’m still awake right now.

The last day or so has been a blur of sweatiness and eating and driving and I think this might be the first time I’ve sat down since…Tuesday? Obviously my first priority is this blog, not all of the emails I’m pretending don’t exist in my inbox!

Like I said, plenty of sweatiness…

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  • a great swim at the outdoor pool this evening (I mostly floated, but that’s okay–we all have those “workouts”)–>I mostly just like swimming in the outdoor pool and with a group makes things all the better!
I declared the last 24 hours my hollow leg portion of the week…
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I’m actually currently so full from my dinner (see kale, brussel sprout, pork, goat cheese, and apricot combo) that the prospect of moving from my futon seems impossible. I did manage to satisfy a hankering for chocolate with some good ol’ Godiva (is it a coincidence the brand begins with “God”? I don’t think so!). Luckily tomorrow will be a low key day and I can get to the stuff I’d like to have done before the holiday weekend. I can’t believe it’s Canada Day already! My weekend plans are up in the air but I’m sure I’ll find something entertaining and I’m hoping for some quality biking, a run, and hopefully some yoga in the mix plus I’ll be wishing an old friend a very happy birthday on Sunday! 😀

I feel a big post coming on. I’ve been journalling a lot and having some really great conversations. I loved chatting with Alysha, who started working away on her life coaching certification last weekend — congrats girl and FYI, you are full of an amazing energy that is magnetic and makes me want to be around you just to feed off of it — and I’ve been thinking (in the little time I’ve found to actually gather my thoughts) a lot about what I want to do in the fall/future. And it’s all good stuff! 🙂

Time actually does fly when you’re having fun…

 

Do it now: Bootcamp Week 1

Well hello there.

Bootcamp has begun!

Last night, I got 4 friends out for a good sweat session in the park. This morning, I had another 3. The workout was perfect and I am so excited to keep going with this. I am going to figure out a time for some sessions in London and will be posting them (I’m thinking a calendar is in order) on here and on my Facebook page, so stay tuned! 🙂

Most of the sessions will be body-weight based and will incorporate cardio/strength work all in one. I kind of try to get people to do things they COULD do on their own but WOULDN’T. That’s the point of coming out: to get out of your comfort zone and to push yourself so you see some changes and feel stronger/invigorated. And if you make some friends along the way, that’s awesome too!

The first workout I wanted to have time to introduce proper form for some exercises and I think I did a good job of setting up a challenging but manageable workout that gave me the flexibility to show people the basics from the get go.

Warmup: jogging, shuffling, criss crossing, lunging, and sprinting between cones + stretches

Workout: (after proper form demonstration) 3x through with different variations

60 seconds mountain climbers
50 lunges (forward, reverse, walking)
40 squats (basic, plie/sumo, jumping)
30 situps (basic, leg raises, V ups)
20 pushups (basic, wide grip, close grip)
10 burpees
1 minute plank (forearm, extended, up/downs)

Cooldown


This took about forty five minutes and was enough to challenge people and to get a couple of grunts and sighs but not so much that they’ll be scared off! I have no problem posting my workouts since I am doing this for fun — I am charging $5 for a session so if people want to do the workouts on their own because they don’t want to pay or can’t make it, that’s great! I think the best part of it, though, isn’t that I can come up with something fancy or uber challenging or exciting but it’s that we are working out together in the park and I’m there to help through the exercises and to ensure that you’re doing things correctly and finding a challenge for yourself! I’d say that’s worth the cheap and cheerful going rate, wouldn’t you?

It’s been two years since my last outdoor bootcamp and I can’t describe how excited I am to be running these sessions again. Even if only one person comes out to them (and if I get to the point where I have to recruit my mom, so be it!) it’s worth it. I love this!

Have you ever done an outdoor bootcamp? What’d you think?
Do you like group workouts?

Let me know if you try the workout — was it tough? How’d you feel after?

WIAW

This post is going to take a different route and kind of sum up some of the stuff I’ve been snarfing lately. And snarf I have…the last stressful week left me eating kind of like a monster. You won’t see the chocolate and random nibbles in these pictures cuz they happened too fast for a photo BUT I am owning up. Last night was a fun night full of junk food (you’ll see) so I’m definitely feeling it and have the motivation to get back on the healthy train. All life is balance and in the past I’d have felt so driven and compulsive about eating “perfectly” to make up for a “bad” week but I’m looking at it with totally different eyes. Acceptance. That makes change possible, right?

Here goes!

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apple oats with raisins and walnuts and yogurt

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rice cakes, almond butter, sprouts, and cranberries

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mini meatloaf and brussel sprouts

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yogurt and oats and coconut 🙂

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oats and cinnamon and banana and yogurt and yummmmm

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apple, kale, carrot, and grape salad with chicken

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swiss chard, brussel sprouts, and sausage 🙂

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pudding shots with baileys and kahlua om nom nom

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oh lord, my coffee table is wild. pudding shots + sour puss gummies = the things you can only justify having as a student therefore needed to be consumed. guac and bacon wrapped figs from my friend who we’ll call martha! and havarti cuz havarti makes a party…

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disclaimer: didn’t eat this all. but did dabble in a burger with peanut butter because how can you not at 2am?

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failed protein pancake…delicious mess when it comes with a banana, honey, peanut butter, and flaxseed on top

It would appear that I love oats and yogurt. That’s the honest truth! Still, posting my eats make me realize I could use some v a r i e t y! I’m craving a bagel…

 

What’s something tasty you ate this week?
What do you eat a lot of?
Have you ever made pudding shots?

Quick, random, fun

Cuz I’m “studying” or something like that (googling stuff I might do in the fall, planning my life, daydreaming about how great my summer’s gonna be), I get to post a totally random post with no apparent reason.

Except to share these motivational quotes I got in my email inbox today (I love Mondays):

“When you make a mistake, don’t look back at it long. Take the reason of the thing into your mind and then look forward. Mistakes are lessons of wisdom. The past cannot be changed. The future is yet in your power.” –Hugh White

“Should is an ordinary, everyday word — except when it is used to indicate an order that may not be refused. Then should becomes a finger waving under the nose. …Should users build prison cells for themselves. They are so focused on what they should do — that they cannot think about what they can do, what they might do in the future.”— Dr. Arthur Freeman and Rose Dewolf

“The best years of your life are the ones in which you decide your problems are your own. You do not blame them on your mother, the ecology, or the president. You realize that you control your own destiny.”

Albert Ellis

And to add in some more randomness, here are a few countdowns I figured out on my study breaks today (okay, most of the day was a study break, but that’s a minor detail):

To Christmas –> 181 days

To American Thanksgiving and what I’m hoping brings another trip to NYC like last year’s start of a great tradition! –> 149 days

To the Zombie Run I forgot to mention I signed up for — I’m going to be a zombie and chase people in September –> 88 days

To Tough Mudder –> 54 days (hence the reason why I did some pull-ups after spin today!)

To CanFit Pro and 2 days of pure fitness fun –> 52 days

To my trip to Alberta to do my Rocky Mountain Cycle Tour –> 38 days

To my trip to Virginia to bike my butt off –> 15 days

To my freedom –> 17 hours (okay, this is kind of scary!)

To be honest, I’ve “given up” or decided to kind of give up the perfection on this one and just am gonna read in the morning. Or make pudding shots. We’ll see! I could most definitely stay up all night studying…but I’m not going to. I figured out what I need to get a mark I deem “acceptable” and it’s really not so bad (or far fetched). I feel as though this whole class has been an experience in me realizing that I am a perfectionist. I don’t like half assing this, but I am. It’s made me uncomfortable and the last week there’s been subconscious stress which leads to a bunch of habits that I used to have trying to sneak back in. Thank god I can recognize them and I know for a fact that in 17 hours I can leave this whole thing in the dust. AMEN to that.

I’ve never been readier to be done with something! 🙂

Reminder to myself: I don’t have to be perfect. I also don’t have to give up just because I’m not aiming for perfection. And I don’t have to feel guilty for wanting to pursue something different. Or worry about the fact that it’s unconventional. I’m kind of weird, and I like it, so doing something “different” with my life seems about right.

Obvs there’s more to come on this front…

And with that tease, I’m going to bed. I’ll at least do better tomorrow if I’m well rested, right?

PS While I was procrastinating, I also updated my portfolio with my latest Bankrate.com article about how to choose a rewards card and I’m about to get my inspiration reel page all caught up too!

Tickets to happiness

So I’m a sucker for all things self-help, cheesy, inspirational, etc. I love magazines, even if I don’t think that we need to buy into some of the messages they sell us. This month I am buying a bunch because I’m so enticed by the summer recipes/outdoor workouts/Olympic specials. I promise to do an update post soon enough about this weekend but for now I’m going to step outside my day to day and dive into something that caught my eye this month…

One of my favourite fitness magazines, as much as it bothers me that every month seems to have a weight loss plan for you to try out, is Self. I connect with the editor, Lucy Danziger, because she seems legitimately interested in being healthy and genuine and bettering herself. I bought her self help book when it came out (it was pretty good!) and I like her blog. So I buy the magazine on a fairly regular basis (FYI I justify my magazine addiction by saying I’m keeping them funded so they can pay freelancers like me–yes?).

There was an article in Self’s July issue that I read on the weekend and totally loved. It was called “Energy! Grit! Love!” and was about “achieving your dream life” and the “right traits” to help you “get more out of life”…while I’m not sure you can totally sum these up in a magazine article, I think it was pretty spot on with the traits they said are the ticket to happy and I really got to thinking about them and how I am applying them or how I could do better with them:

  1. grit – the raw endurance, perseverance, and passion that keeps you going despite obstacles … I think I’m doing a good job with this in terms of my health/my recovery/my training, but to do better in general I can apply this to my education/career. I see obstacles when I think about NOT being an RD. Will people respect me and my advice if I’m “just” a personal trainer? If I “just” go to school to be a registered holistic nutritionist? If I “just” freelance and don’t go to journalism school? If I can’t find a job right away? The whole hearted answer is that these obstacles are coming up for me, but some of them are in my head, some of them are not that big of a deal, and none of them have to stop me. 🙂 And they won’t because I’m pouring my heart and soul into promoting healthy and happy, and that’s where my passion is. It just feels right and it feels worth it.
  2. self control – doing what’s in line with your most fundamental goals, even when you’re tempted to stray … I think I do a great job here when it comes to how I respect myself. If someone wants me to do something I am not comfortable with, I stand my ground. Is it illegal? I’m out. etc. etc. I think I could do a better job with this when it comes to sticking to my plans to put myself first. I need to learn to say no so that my goals aren’t compromised at the expense of wanting to please someone else.
  3. curiosity – a penchant for seeking out the new and different … My bucket list for the summer kind of shows you that I’m kind of a random person. Latch hooking and mud runs? I’m kind of out there. I think I need to cultivate this curiosity on a larger scale though. I’m working on embracing my unconventional self and letting her lead me in terms of breaking the mold with school and life and my career plans (or lack thereof) and it feels scary but awesome.
  4. love – close, caring relationships where the good vibes flow both ways … I think this one has been huge for me. When I was depressed/dealing with my ED, I built a lot of walls to keep people away and to keep me in that isolated, unhappy place. I’ve done a good job of opening up to people. I think I need to continue on this though via reaching out to people who inspire me. When you surround yourself with people who are on the same positive wavelength as you are (or as where you are really working to get), it can’t help but rub off on you. 🙂 In terms of boys (a rare mention on here), I need to be open to whatever comes my way but not go into things with big expectations. I think I’m doing a good job of trying to go with the flow, but I’ve got to keep reminding myself that when it’s right, it will feel right and take care of itself! 😀
  5. social intelligence – your gray-dar–how well you pick up on the tray areas of a situation and intuit the things that people don’t say out loud … This is one where I really don’t think I agree. I mean, I get it: we have to be in tune with other people. I think I fall prey to over thinking things though and pick up on things that aren’t even there and then end up creating issues or at the very least worrying about issues that don’t exist. So maybe what I need to do is just trust…
  6. gratefulness – fully appreciating and noticing the good in yourself, other people and the world at large, then giving that appreciation back in spades … I’m feeling this one. I am learning to love myself and it’s starting to generate confidence and more love for other people (I don’t have to be jealous any more now that I’m good with me!) and it’s time for me to give that back. When I gave back by volunteering at a race last month, I mentioned how GREAT that felt. I would love to keep doing that. I want to start volunteering in other venues where I’ve felt like I’ve been blessed, but I’m not sure where to start. This is definitely something I’ve got to explore!
  7. optimism – believing that the best may lie ahead … I keep saying it and I mean it: there’s NO use in being anything but positive. A few months ago, I was so worried about getting reinjured. Apprehension’s fine, but when that fear scared me into not living my life–that sucked. Now that I’m getting better at trusting that things are SUPPOSED to be good (my default setting is happy and deserving, not miserable and unhappy), I seriously feel like I’m shifting to the glass half full approach. 😀 I can do a better job by moving forward with this!
  8. zest – tackling life with energy, excitement, enthusiasm and eagerness … This was my FAVOURITE! I love love love love this. I love the word ZEST and I love the point. I’ve been trying to pinpoint what it is that I want to cultivate more of in myself–is it courage? leadership? fearlessness? that unconventional approach to things? energy? charisma?  I think I want most to be ZESTY. As the article says, “people filled with positive energy ten dot see their own as a calling–and end up more satisfied with what they do and with life in general” <– I’m in. This is what I want most. This is what I need. This is how you find success: figure out what makes your heart sing and do it. AKA be ZESTY. Yeah, I love this. When you’re around zesty folks, you just want a piece of what they have. You want their energy, you want to be around them, you just FEEL good! I want to be that way. 😀
That’s all. I’m going to go be zesty! 🙂

What do you think about trying to pinpoint what can make you happy?
Did any of these “tickets” stand out to you as one you are acing? Need to work on?

Let’s go! Excited and an announcement!

Sundays can be stressful if you have a big week ahead, but today I’m feeling like I’m back on top of things, which is exactly what I needed to feel earlier. 

Done and done, and it wasn’t so hard to get myself back on track.

My eats were more “normal” for me…

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kale, apple, sausage, and cranberry salad for lunch

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rice cakes with almond butter, sprouts, and raisins

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egg/egg white scramble with potatoes, avocado, swiss chard, onions, flaxseed, noms! 🙂

I got in some quality sweaty time (and I think my cold is just about ready to be kicked to the curb) which also helps me feel more like me:

And even though I did open my textbooks and realize how much studying I have to do in the next ~38 hours, I listened to a whole lot of chill music…

And during my run and in my journal I got to talk about what I have up my sleeve for this summer and fall and I realized that I’m doing exactly what I want to do, which is the only answer.

More updates to come…I promise. I’m hoping to get onto goaltender and set out some new goals for myself now that I feel like I’ve got a vision for myself again. Oh, that feels good to say. Refreshing. Relieving. At the same time, I am promising to keep some space open for awesomeness to work it’s way in and to unfold on its own. 🙂

I also am flying pretty high because I’ve got a great week to look forward to, even if there’s an exam in the mix. I’m mostly jacked because it’s official: I announced my bootcamp plans of this week! Sarnia…get ready! 🙂

…can you spell excited? London, I’m hoping to get going next week with some evening/morning options with details to come! 🙂 I’ll add a page with some more info when I get it all sorted out (I’m going to have infinitely more time come Tuesday at 4pm when this exam is done!).

My plans for the week look something like this:

Monday – morning yoga/study day/PM spin (teaching) + circuit workout<–Tough Mudder’s coming!

Tuesday – morning studying/acing my afternoon exam/bike ride/celebrations

Wednesday – teaching spin at Campus Rec at 1pm (be there!)/Sarnia for bootcamp x 2

Thursday – bootcamp in Sarnia in the morning/back to London/swim in the evening<–outdoor pool, I hope! and maybe some yoga

Friday – life coaching session

Saturday – long bike ride (hopefully) in Sarnia

Sunday – bike ride or run in the morning before the Canada Day Parade/birthday celebrations with a friend/fireworks

Monday – sleep in/recover/realize it’s July and say holy crap!

With all of this I like to remind myself–it’s just a guide. Nothing is set in stone, especially as far as the workouts go (I really hope I feel better ASAP but I’m going to rest the cardio if this cold doesn’t get lost soon and I’m a fair-weather, I’d rather exercise with friends kind of girl)…

And you know what I need to do to be able to have an awesome week?

Go.

To.

Bed.

Good night!

What’s on tap this week for you?

The swing of things

When it comes to balance, I’ve realized something: I find it via extremes.

I think I’m in the midst of one of those wobbly, I’m trying to figure this out and balancing and teeter tottering spots when it comes to my eating.

Exhibit A (Saturday–which involved no studying 😉 but a great bike ride in sarnia, some fun at Opa Fest, and making an even bigger mess out of my apartment):

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kale, carrots, grapes, apple, almond butter breakie

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pre bike ride

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during the bike ride

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post bike ride fries under the bridge — skipped the bun on the burger and thoroughly enjoyed this

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“fuel” for the road

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random dinner cuz I was ravenous

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accidentally ate these even though I meant to save ’em for pudding shots — oh well! I also ate all their friends before I could take my own photo…

not MY chocolate, but you get the point…

So, you could MAYBE say that things went “downhill”. Or you could say…

  • I’m doing a really good job of figuring out how to eat more real food, I just had a weekend day where I ate some foods that maybe weren’t ideal. It’s not the end of the world–it’s one day out of a whole week, month, year, life where I eat mostly real, whole, healthy foods! This does NOT mean I’m a pig or that I need to restrict or work out harder to make up for this, it means I need to focus on eating well for the next couple days to make sure I feel better.
  • I’m in a really stressful period right now: good stress from graduating, etc. and bad stress from having an exam to “worry” about. All in all, I’m doing a pretty good job of staying calm and collected–what I need to remember is that food issues are easy to worry about, life issues (which are the ones I SHOULD focus on), are tougher. Just cuz they’re tough doesn’t give me a reason to distract myself with petty things instead…
  • I biked a pretty long ride in the morning. I didn’t really refuel properly and I feel sick. My eating is off for more reasons than emotions.
  • French fries under the bridge = accomplishment because they’re a tick off my summer bucket list. PLUS they were enjoyed with friends!

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  • I got to see my friends last night (and take some more ridiculous photos).

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  • Today’s a new day. And I started it with a healthy bowl of yogurt, banana, oats, walnuts, and honey.

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I think what I’m trying to do here is head off a full on binge or downward spiral by reminding myself that when you’re headed in the wrong direction, you don’t have to keep going. I realize that yesterday (and the last week, to be totally honest), I’ve been flying by the seat of my pants, eating a lot of things that really have left me feeling blah, etc. Instead of feeling guilty, I’m going to be grateful: feeling off and feeling sick = indication that this isn’t working for me. The beautiful thing is that I can change what I’m doing and it’s never too late and I’m not too far gone because I spent a week eating junk food. Looking back, I had a lot of beer, froyo for dinner twice, some night time trips to the kitchen, and a whole bunch of food that actually left me feeling so sick. Common sense says that since I feel like poop because of it, I shouldn’t keep on this path. So I’m going to listen to common sense here, be proactive, and commit to eating plenty of fresh and whole foods, drinking more water, and saving the worries for things that are more important than what I am eating for breakfast, lunch, and dinner (my exam, bootcamp plans, travel plans, fall plans, etc. are much better uses of my energy).

Do you ever get caught up in something petty (i.e. what you eat) when you have bigger worries? How do you bring it back to what’s important?
How do you get back onto a healthy train when you feel like you’ve gotten off track?