Lessons learned

Honest and dirty. That’s what’s happening here. A few realizations I had tonight:
  • I’m still vulnerable to bingeing: tonight was a slippery slope that started with my treat bag (no more chocolate) and then progressed to sampling other treats that I really don’t remember tasting 😦
  • My friends have impeccable timing: just at the right moment to save me from getting deeper into things.
  • When you feel like you’re out of control, the best thing you can do is STOP. The worst is to keep going: this is me stopping.
  • I tend to find ways to make myself miserable when I should just feel happy (with my family, relaxed, etc.): awareness is the first step. At least I’m noticing that right now the fact that I feel gross and guilty is making me want to put on a cranky face and be alone and isolated.
  • I fear the worst: a little ouchie with my run today = I will never ever be a runner: this is bull and I know it. And I am an athlete already, I just don’t give myself credit.
  • My priorities are wonky: did I foam roll every day this week? no. physio every day? no. journal every day? no. 😦 … but I realize this. And I just have to decide that I’m worth it.
  • I need to learn my boundaries when it comes to blogging: no not TMI posts. more like the blogs that I read that sometimes promote certain “ideals” that I know aren’t healthy for me to read about. ditto for the magazines i buy and the friends I hang around with.

And now I’m done beating myself up. What’s good that I need to recognize from today:

  • A year or two ago, coming here, things were very different. I spent my days working out, worrying about when I would work out, etc. I was a type about the food I ate (white pasta never would have happened) and can recall bingeing/purgeing numerous times and keeping it to myself. 😦
  • This is a process: The treat bag was awesome. But I think I realized I’d much rather enjoy a bigger treat at the end of the day or as a break than I would to eat the same amount of food spread out over the day. And I am not saying both can’t happen, but I am being realistic and realizing that if I eat too much junk food at the expense of eating enough healthy food, that’s problematic!
  • I got some sunshine in, some good deals, and a bunch of quality time: half a binge, a whole binge, the binge to end all binges, can’t take that away from me and so long as I don’t let it, it cannot take away any of the continued good times I’m going to have while I’m here.
  • I am relaxed: As evidenced by my gut reaction to not allow myself to feel good, I must have been feeling pretty chill. It’s either a migraine or a bit of a slip, I feel like. But this will change and relaxed will slowly become more comfortable. Something like the “this is your true nature” kind of message that comes at the end of a yoga class with relaxation, this is how I’m meant to be — happy, stable, NOT freaking out.
  • I am back on track already: starting now. Not starting tomorrow. Recovery involves slips–which get further and further apart–and getting back on track, stronger for it. Consider it done!

Sorry for the randomness.

When your blog is your diary, there’s bound to be a few of these posts…

I’ll add a song so it’s a bit more legit…

Do you tend to focus on the bad things? How might you shift to recognize positives?
Are you good at slowing down or do you find it hard to relax? Any tips? 

Highlights, thus far

While I totally expect to update the highlight of my trip (because things can only get better in life, right?), right now I have a couple pretty cool things to share…

1. I love thunderstorms, and we got a DOOZY tonight!

2. Baby ducks. Cuz who doesn’t love babies?! I even got a video of these guys. I literally chased them down and probably got poison ivy…only time will tell!

3. I also got a gift–this cookbook has the best cake recipe for crumbless cakes, apparently! Thank you gramma!

4. Realizing my gramma lives on a BEAUTIFUL piece of property. And hearing that there are all kinds of animals, including PONIES, to walk to in the next few days and feed!

5. Meeting a guy–and his name is Duke!

6. A rainbow…this just might inspire a post. Love it when life works out like that.

7. Deep fried peanuts. Because when your uncle offers you a peanut you can eat in the shell, the whole thing, you don’t say no. And then you get addicted.

Anddddd good night!

Body by Vi, I wish you’d…

…it rhymes with “Vi”.

Die.

This was going to be a Facebook status update before I headed to bed, but I bet there are some opinions out there that I’d love to hear, so here goes another post that, kind of like my take on strong is the new skinny, might hit close to home for some people.

In short, if I see one more beautiful friend of mine touting the “Body by Vi” program or challenge I might cry or scream or lose it.

When it came up on my news feed multiple times today, I decided to google the ingredients of the shakes. I had a conversation with a friend about how overwhelming the whole thing has been lately in our circle of friends/social media and about how concerning it is that so many people jump on this bandwagon looking for health.

I found an info sheet online which explains the challenge and gives information on the shakes, mixes, and cookies, etc. they sell.

The ingredients for the shake are mostly ingredients and not really recognizable as food to me:

Hi “digestive resistant maltodextrin from fibersol”, I don’t think we’ve met. Maybe next time I’m at the market I’ll ask around for some? I’m thinking it’s just a form of fibre, but seriously…

What happened to getting fiber from foods? Wouldn’t it be kind of cool if you could toss some fruit and maybe some yogurt for protein and spinach for vitamins if you’re feeling fancy into a blender and whip up a shake that you can call food instead of a food-like supplement?

If you check out the cookies the program sells, they say under the question “Who can eat the cookie?” that they’re good for the “health conscious: those who want a healthy snack without wasting calories eating empty foods,” among others.

So serve up a mix of a bunch of things extracted from food and some stuff you certainly can’t picture.

…not really what I’m expecting in a cookie. FYI: flour, sugar, and butter are real food. Maybe some oatmeal, eggs, and chocolate.

All those extra extracts added into these products might very well be healthy — but wouldn’t it be cool if people got healthy by learning to eat the real foods instead of frankenfoods that provide the vitamins/minerals/compounds in isolated form? Do you really think a diet that teaches you to eat a cookie as a way to avoid wasting calories on empty foods is going to work long term? Wouldn’t it be better to teach people how to fuel themselves using whole foods to get the nutrition they need?

In my opinion, health is about learning and about gaining the skills and abilities that are genuinely healthy. The Body By Vi challenge is about selling the products. You’d probably lose weight–according to this article I liked on a group of dietitians’ website, the program provides:

“1200-1400calories/day. 18% of the calories come from fat, 44% from carbohydrates, and a whopping 38% from protein. What does the body really need to stay healthy? 20-30% from fat, 45-65% from carbohydrates, 10-20% from protein.”

Seems a bit counterproductive if your goal is to get healthy?

So by all means if you want to admit that you’re taking a quick fix that is really not a healthy choice that must not be based on the pursuit of health but maybe on something ego-driven or unhealthy, tout the products. If you want to talk to me about getting healthy, lets do it over Green Monsters.

I’m gonna leave this with some advice from Michael Pollan (one of his tips from Food Rules):

“Avoid food products containing ingredients that no ordinary human would keep in the pantry.”

While I can’t say I’m perfect–I definitely eat processed foods–I know that basing my diet on whole foods is healthy. I know that writing this post was necessary!
What do you think about the shakes?
How do you feel about people promoting products they sell — i.e. these shakes or anything else you’ve been approached to purchase or to “get in on”?

Girl talk resources

Since I’ve been getting some feedback that people can relate to the post I made earlier about my issues with athletic induced amenorrhea, I thought I’d share some resources that have helped me out with the whole question of whether or not it’s really an issue, why it starts, how to get back to a healthy, normal cycle, etc.

It’s all over the place. These are just the articles I came back to tonight!

And now for some insight…Stuff that I think (my opinion on what I’ve read and my own experience):

  • You can still train, but the motivation should be right.
  • If it’s about energy balance, you’ve got to be willing to work through some experimenting and see what works for you. In my case, this also means accepting that in order to get my period, I need to be in calorie balance. Which means I cannot be losing weight, which I think for the last bit while I was trying to deal with my amenorrhea, I kind of didn’t accept. Recall my epiphany about always thinking with a weight loss mindset? Maybe now that I recognized that and I can move on to living healthy, I’ll be better able to fuel myself and to stay in balance. Once a doc suggested that even if I was maintaining my weight but it was sporadic eating (i.e. mostly at night after dieting during the day, ditto for the weekend after being “good” all week, etc.) my body would still be out of whack. Another suggested that it might have to do with refueling around workouts specifically (and promoted eating more immediately before and after, etc.). All good theories, if you’re willing to accept that your body has a weight that it wants to find and will find, if you let it.
  • Patience is key–this issue didn’t come around overnight and it won’t go away really quick either. For me, this means accepting that I spent a lot of time abusing my body and accepting that it’s not going to snap back right away. To be honest, I think this extends. My mind is recovered, I am making huge steps forward, etc. but it’s been interesting to see the effects of how much I put myself through (too much exercise, not enough eating, bingeing, purging, all the stuff that came along with ED) in their physical manifestations. Thyroid disease runs in my family, but not usually this young. None of my family members have issues with migraines, their periods, etc. I had low bone density at the age of 17, a time when I should have been building things up, not tearing them down. My heart took a beating and I have to go yearly for tests now to check in because of a scare I had in the height of things. It’s all pretty scary, it might not be due to ED, but it’s related and it’s also REAL. I’m also not blaming my injury issues on ED, but it’s true that I put my body through a hell of a lot of workouts and didn’t give it rest or love or so many of the things it deserved for a long time. I can’t expect it to bounce back perfectly — this struggle is just part of recovery!
  • The stuff associated with the Female Athlete Triad is really similar to ED and I see it in so many of my friends who I would never think of as having disordered eating. The compulsion to train, the thought that you can kind of be “proud” that you “work so hard” that you don’t get your period, etc. is kind of rampant and really sad once you step outside and see that it’s not actually healthy at all. This is a topic I know I want to work with when I’m a dietitian (sounds cool to say that!) because I am so passionate about it.
  • Maybe personally I spend too much time working out too hard. This might also be related to the awesome spin class that I went to this morning where the instructor talked about why recovery (within a class specifically) is so important. I’m kind of a balls to the wall person and even though I’ve been working with a coach, I find it so hard to tone my workouts down and to keep my heart rate in a happy zone. No wonder I’ve been so tired and exhausted and injury prone in the past, I know, but seriously! Maybe this has something to do with it…bring on the long, somewhat leisurely bike rides! 🙂 Variety is the spice of life.
  • Maybe I just am not in the place to have a baby. Emotionally, mentally and therefore physically.

Andddd enough of the girl talk (continued). It is SO past my bedtime it’s not even funny!

Can you relate?
Did you find any of these resources helpful?

 

What feels right

Morning!

When my alarm went off this morning at 5, I woke up no problem! I had plans to go to a spin class at the gym for 6 (aka in 7 minutes), but I found myself laying in bed instead. It’s not that I wasn’t wide awake—I was—but I just wasn’t feelin’ it. When I get up and go to the gym too many days in a row for 6am, I feel drained. I might not need to be at home, and I do still have to get to campus for 8:30 class, but there’s something recharging about being able to sit at my table and eat my breakfast out of a bowl instead of a tupperware, watch the Today show, and get ready at home every once in a while! I love morning workouts, but not every single day—and I’ll still love an afternoon workout too!

So getting up for my morning workout but postponing it til later just feels right. 🙂

I get the exact opposite feeling when I read all the news about the article in Vogue where a mom talks about putting her seven year old daughter on a diet, doing things like denying her dinner or publicly humiliating her at Starbucks (I want to read the real article, but from the GMA and Today show segments I saw, it seems like a pretty troubling story). What became apparent is that the mom seems to have food issues. I have this feeling that her daughter would have grown into the weight and ended up at a healthy and happy weight rather than having been subject to a year of her mother controlling what she eats and planting a whole bunch of ideas about “good vs. bad” food and needing to control eating in order to be “healthy.” If, on the other hand, the girl did need to lose weight, which I really doubt was the case, there’s a reason why. Why not figure out why she was carrying extra weight in the first place and deal with the issues instead of making weight the issue? ‘Cuz weight’s never the issue.

I thought that some of the backlash was tough on the mom, who must have issues herself (and even admits it in the article) that it’s the worst article in Vogue ever, according to Jezebel. At first I felt a little bad for her, but then I realized she was putting pictures of her and her daughter in Vogue, something she and her friends would read—even if I bought that she was trying to help her daughter, publicizing it in the name of earning herself a modelling opportunity in vogue seems a bit selfish, doesn’t it? And then I heard about a book deal she signed, and I just sighed and decided to blog about it instead. I also came across Charlotte @ The Great Fitness Experiment’s take on it — she’s got a good summary and take on things too!

How do you feel about morning workouts every day?
Did you get caught up in this story from Vogue?
What do you think about the diet itself/putting a kid on a diet? How about putting the story in Vogue or using it for a book deal?  

1, 2, 3 and ABC

You’re about to learn more about me than you ever wanted to know…

Three Things I’m Looking Forward to This Week

  1. The exercise nutrition symposium this Saturday.
  2. Volunteering this weekend (hopefully) at a hockey game for Hope’s Garden.
  3. Warm weather! And rain! My favs.

Fun Fact Survey: A to Z

A is for age: 23. Kind of an in between age. I’m not at that quarter life crisis age, but I sorta feel like I already had enough life crises to earn a get out of the normal 24/25 one free card, ya know?

B is for breakfast today: pre swim = yogurt (greek plain, vanilla) with some crushed Kashi shredded wheat; post swim = shredded wheat, dried apples (new love)/raisins, and vanilla soy milk 

…ps I need coffee!

C is for currently craving: SUMMER! And RUNNING! My hip is bugging me (aching a bit) again…I think I need to back off! Building up the runs too fast is silly because I want to run allllll summer! This is another push to get in the pool more!

D is for dinner tonight: I was thinking falafel, but I’ve got to teach spin afterwards, so I’m thinking googling pre-spin dinner (or making something a bit blander) might be in order. Or I’ll take suggestions?

E is for favorite type of exercise: Triathlon! Yoga! So running, biking, swimming, yoga, etc. I like circuits if I’m doing weights and I wish I could add “core workouts” to this. I need some that get me going…

F is for an irrational fear: That I’m going to somehow open a car door by leaning on it or something while driving and fall out. I think it comes from a door opening when I was in preschool going to school while we were moving—I still remember it—but now I lock the door all the time.

G is for gross food: Goat’s yogurt. How can goat cheese be so freaking good but goat yogurt be so…sickening.

H is for hometown: I’d call it Sarnia, Ontario. But I was born in Westchester, PA and grew up near Cleveland! Now I live in London, Ontario!

I is for something important: Integrity. Living your word, being honest, and following your heart. Cheesy, I’m aware, but entirely necessary.

J is for current favorite jam: Wild Ones (Flo Rida ft. Sia). This one is on repeat and definitely got me through swim this morning! It makes me feel like summer, if that makes sense…

K is for kids: Not for quite a while. 

L is for current location: A desk in my classroom. I am not being bad, class doesn’t start for 8 minutes!

M is for the most recent way you spent money: Massage! I made an appointment for this afternoon—back to that aching hip and needing to stay on top of things!

N is for something you need: Water bottles! I think I lost 4 over the winter…the cheaper kind you use for biking. But now that spring has sprung and outdoor rides are happening, I’m going to need to get on this!

these are my favs!

O is for occupation: Student, freelance writer, fitness instructor, editor at The Gazette. 

P is for pet peeve: When people can’t put their phone down. When we’re out for coffee, WE are out for coffee. When you’re in class, at least TRY to stop texting for an hour. If you’re paying for something, talk to the cashier. When we’re out, you should probably make memories more exciting than the guy you were drunk texting all night.

Q is for a quote: I need to dedicate an entire post, page, blog to these. I love love love Quote Garden but a good google search helps me out in a pinch! The first quote I ever really remember loving (and the one I seriously consider getting tattooed across my side) is:

Other honourable mentions:
“The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. The gift is yours – it is an amazing journey – and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins.” – Bob Moawad
“It isn’t necessary to know exactly how your ideal life will look; you only have to know what feels better and what feels worse…Begin making choices based on what makes you feel freer and happier, rather than on how you think an ideal life should look. It’s the process of feeling our way toward happiness, not the realization of the Platonic ideal, that creates our best lives.”

R is for random fact about you: I have a piece of lead (graphite?) stuck in my right calf. It has been there since I was six and it came from a realllllly sharp Christmas pencil that was sticking through my backpack on the school bus, through a pair of pants. Impressive, no?

S is for favorite healthy snack: sweet potato with almond butter! 

T is for favorite treat: FRO YO, best served with friends and hot fudge!

U is for something that makes you unique: 

V is for favorite vegetable: TOSSUP–spinach, squash, or carrots…or brussel sprouts?! 

W is for today’s workout: I did master’s swim this morning (2500m) before the sunrise. Tonight: CORE!  teaching spin! 🙂

X is for X-rays you’ve had: one of my foot, one of my hip — both just en route to referrals for better tests around sports injuries — luckily i’ve not broken anything KNOCK ON WOOD!

Y is for yesterday’s highlight: Another tossup: awesome bike ride and seeing my friends at Sunday Funday!

Z is for your time zone: Eastern! I’m awful at knowing what time it is elsewhere…

Have you done this survey yet? Get on it!Happy Monday!! 

Just busy enough

…to keep this really short!

We are working away at the Gazette on our special issue. It’ll be out Friday, and I promise to share the link with you guys when the pdf is up! I also can’t wait to post my article about being fit vs. fat–I think it’s an important topic.

Also important is to note that today is Registered Dietitian Day in the states (Canada’s is next week).

I gave some props to a couple of dieticians I really look up to who practice in our neighbour to the south and I was pretty freaking jacked when I saw these replies:

Um, SO COOL! Joy Bauer is BY FAR someone I look up to–member how I wanted to be on the Today Show? She’s a dietitian AND she’s on the Today Show and writes for Woman’s Day on a monthly basis and writes books.  I’ve literally been running around the Gazette office today telling people she tweeted back at me and it’s a little wasted on them because they’re not Today Show junkies like me…but that’s okay! I’m flying high.

And Andy Bellatti is a new addition to the list of the RDs I want to emulate because he raises such important issues!

Next I hope Nancy Clark replies to me… 😉

As you can see, I have plenty of directions to take with this nutrition stuff. I’m excited to get to explore things–food policy is also on this list (see Marion Nestle for some inspiration here)!

So…while I don’t know what “kind” of an RD I’m going to end up being, but for now I’ll just settle on passionate and dedicated and know that I’m going to end up loving the field. If I end up on the Today Show, you can say you knew me when!

Back to the work, kiddos. Stay tuned for a WIAW if I don’t head outside and fall asleep under the sun after teaching spin…

Have you ever been to an RD?
If you’re an RD 2 Be, do you have a vision for your career?  

Food for thought

First of all, get ready to get hungry…

Last night’s pre-spin dinner, which was a recreation of my go to cheddar and apple sandwich. I used organic cheddar and was expecting greatness, but I have to admit the cheese was a bit strong. Apparently Im just accustomed to the processed Cracker Barrel kind? Hmmmm…

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After spin, I was hungry. It had been a while since dinner so I went for a bedtime snack that started out as yogurt, then saw some applesauce, then some brown sugar, then some cinnamon, then some oats. then a spoon of maple syrup. Anyone else see where this took me? Apple crisp territory!

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I pretty much crashed last night immediately after a quick foam roll and stretch. And that’s a good thing, cuz I was up early for swim today.

My pre swim snack was quick too — more applesauce, this time with some oats and walnuts for texture!

I would be lying if I’d say I wasn’t thinking about breakfast during swim. Cuz I just knew it was going to be oh so good…and I was right! Overnight oats with chocolate soy milk and a bit of yogurt, a banana, and crumbled homemade granola bar, anyone? One of those really unphotogenic meals that you knowwwww tasted bomb.

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Staying on the delicious track, my lunch was awesome. A flaxseed wrap with a combo of peanut butter/almond butter, sprouts, and carrots (with extra carrots for crunching).

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PLUS a huge gingerbread cookie from the farmers market at Brescia! I didn’t buy it, but when a prof brings cookies to a meeting, it would be RUDE to say no, right? I had a bite and KNEW I wanted this with my afternoon snack so saved it!

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And I crumbled part of it on my yogurt this afternoon. Best. decision. ever. It was huge, so I shared. I like to bribe people with food, too!

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Now I’m finishing up my long to do list (finishing up, more like plugging away at), sitting by the sunniest window I could find, and anticipating a fun bootcamp class tonight! My hip feels a bit tight so I’ll be playing it by year. I know I shouldn’t run today — but I gladly walked to and from Brescia in the beautiful sunshine this afternoon.

Oh and PS: I had this thought today–“Crap, that cookie has milk in it. I am trying to use milk alternatives more. Maybe I shouldn’t eat it. Not to mention it’s huge! I don’t need all that.”

Then I thought…”But what do I want?”

And this is the answer: I want to live my life, eat food that tastes good and I know where it came from. I want to be flexible enough to enjoy things as they come and not beat myself up if I eat something unanticipated. I want to have room for things like fresh cookies (home made and free no less) and I don’t want to ever be so picky that I miss out on things (not that a cookie is something to miss out on — I’m thinking about the future on vacations, fro yo dates, dinners out, etc.). 

This is going to translate into me eating consciously and shopping with a lot of things in mind, but also being flexible and open to life and what it throws my way. We eat to live, not live to eat, ya know? But we have to be able to enjoy our food and we should not be ignorant of how important what we eat is—why not try to be dedicated and committed to eating with intention but also a human being?

It’s funny that I had these thoughts and then sat down, stumbled onto this article about orthorexia (I have a knack for getting distracted by things worth sharing) while I was poking around twitter. I think it does a good job of raising an important issue—when food choices become obsessive and negatively affect your quality of life/happiness, is that healthy any more?—but I also think you can be dedicated to your dietary choices without being crazed about it.

And if you don’t believe me, I’ll be living proof of it…cookies anyone?

What are you doing to enjoy this springlike weather?
When’s the last time you had a fresh baked cookie? 

What do you think about food obsessions outside of “normal” or “typical” E Ds? 

 

Sharing

Busy, busy, busy.

With a smile on my face, though.

Last night, I taught spin (you should see a playlist post this week)–which felt awesome, but mostly because I got to run for FIVE MINUTES OF PURE BLISS beforehand. Nothing hurt during the run. I feel TIGHT today but I know it’s probably a combo of Sunday’s ride outside plus Monday’s swim and spin, not the five minutes of awesome. I’m BACK, or at least GETTING BACK!

…if ya couldn’t tell by the caps, I’m kind of excited about this! I’m promising myself to stay vigilant with my core work and with my physio and stretching and foam rolling…and now I’m promising you guys too. A little accountability never hurt anyone.

This morning at swim our coach mentioned the time trial at the pool this weekend. I will pretend I was “roped” into it…not really, but it was suggested that I sign up and the fact that a bunch of my friends are doing it made it an easy choice. Yes, I might embarrass myself by being the last person in the events, BUT someone has to do it. And you have to start from somewhere…and rather than thinking that I’ll be last, I’m going to tell myself that I’ll swim as fast as I can and impress myself with a new level of awesome. My only timed swims have been triathlons so I’m thinking I might be faster (getting kicked in the face tends to slow you down), not to mention I’ve been swimming consistently for the first time…ever (I just started last year, really, at all!).

Anywho, enough rambling. Go read these posts instead, cuz they made my morning:

…especially noting: “Every bit of you is perfect, unique and amazing. So many people love and adore you to pieces. Start believing them.”
…noting: “While I do not dismiss the recent grassroots efforts that have gained significant strength via a petition to get pink slime out of school cafeterias, I worry that the focus on it detracts from bigger and more important food system issues, and provides the meat industry with a convenient distraction and an easily fixable problem that can effortlessly be spun into a public-relations success.” – Bellatti
…while eating your binge food every day for a week at every meal (“until you get sick of it”) might seem extreme, Nancy Clark is my hero and the article does a good point of stressing that normalizing eating and getting rid of notions of what you can and cannot have is KEY in weight management but more importantly in leading a happy, healthy life. That message sounds familiar, no?

Happy Tuesday!

Read any good articles/blog posts lately?
Would you eat cake for every meal to take away its power?
Have you ever swam in a time trial?

 

It seems a bit hypocritical, no?

Confession: I feel a bit like a hypocrite.

What’s up?

This morning (and last night), I was struggling with my whole freaking out a bit over the nutrition output I got for my attempt at granola bars.

If I split them into nine bars (that gives hefty servings, which is what I wanted)…

but that’s just part of the story…I’m also getting fibre, a good dose of healthy fats, and vitamins/minerals.

Nutrition Facts
  Servings Per Recipe: 9
  Serving Size: 1 serving
Amount Per Serving
  Calories 255.5
  Total Fat 10.0 g
  Saturated Fat 1.4 g
  Polyunsaturated Fat 2.6 g
  Monounsaturated Fat 6.0 g
  Cholesterol 0.0 mg
  Sodium 7.6 mg
  Potassium 405.8 mg
  Total Carbohydrate 49.8 g
  Dietary Fiber 5.6 g
  Sugars 25.5 g
  Protein 5.7 g
  Vitamin A 0.0 %
  Vitamin B-12 0.0 %
  Vitamin B-6 4.0 %
  Vitamin C 1.1 %
  Vitamin D 0.0 %
  Vitamin E 15.3 %
  Calcium 7.0 %
  Copper 24.2 %
  Folate 5.2 %
  Iron 14.9 %
  Magnesium 25.9 %
  Manganese 72.0 %
  Niacin 4.1 %
  Pantothenic Acid 2.9 %
  Phosphorus 21.6 %
  Riboflavin 8.1 %
  Selenium 1.5 %
  Thiamin 12.0 %
  Zinc 10.0 %

And they’re made from scratch, which we know is in line with how I’d like to eat more.

So in other words, I was being a bit silly when I got into the “I shouldn’t be eating this” vs. “I’ll just have a taste” vs. “I should stop” thinking that always ends up in eating without thinking and usually means overeating mindlessly. Ironic since I listened to Jillian Michaels’ latest podcast and she talked about eating more mindfully…and I was like “THIS IS SO TRUE”…but then went and fell into the old habit of telling myself I shouldn’t be having something…eating them right out of the pan. So not ideal.

So, about the “hypocritical part”.

After telling a friend today that I thought it was weird that she chose sugar free ketchup with fake sweeteners in it and telling her when she said “It’s better that sugar” that there is nothing wrong with sugar (I may or may not have crossed the line and said “fake crap is better?” — and I don’t condone attacking friends’ dietary choices and I hope my girl reads this and knows I’m feeling like an arse) I realized I should probably live my word…

Cuz to be honest, sugar is okay. At what point did we decide that low sugar and adding fake things to fill up the space was better? I am going to listen to the message from Saturday instead–that we should focus on getting enough good in during the day and the whole idea of using food as fuel–and am forgiving myself for momentarily getting confused…cuz in what way is a Clif bar or a granola bar filled with heavily processed ingredients better than the real deal–something I made from scratch?

Ingredients in a clif bar, fyi:

Ingredients: Organic Brown Rice Syrup, ClifPro® (Soy Rice Crisps [Soy Protein Isolate, Rice Flour, Barley Malt Extract], Organic Soy Flour, Organic Roasted Soybeans), Organic Rolled Oats, Organic Toasted Oats (Organic Oats, Organic Dried Cane Syrup), Organic Cane Syrup, Organic Peanut Butter (Organic Peanuts, Salt), Chocolate Chips (Dried Cane Syrup, Unsweetened Chocolate, Cocoa Butter, Soy Lecithin, Vanilla Extract), Peanut Flour, Peanuts, ClifCrunch® (Organic Oat Fiber, Apple Fiber, Inulin [Chicory Extract], Psyllium, Organic Milled Flaxseed), Organic Date Paste, Natural Flavors, Sea Salt.

…are not much different than my mix: some chocolate, some sugar, some fat, some carbs. But I made mine from scratch, got to add the tastes I want, and spent way less money. So to NOT eat them would be really dumb, don’t ya think? And then to go and rant about how we should eat real food, not be scared of carbs, and  have sugar in our diets, especially as athletes…well, I better get on that whole practising what you preach stuff, don’t you think?

So I had it with my morning, pre swim snack AND in my breakfast, which means I am owning this and reclaiming the recipe/healthy outlook I know is right.

greek yogurt with crumbled granola 🙂

Perfect fuel for ~2500m of awesome-ness, for the record!

kamut flakes,granola, banana, and soy milk

Sense: slapped into myself!

Now it’s time for a full day of class, Gazette, physio, meetings, and teaching spin tonight! Bring. it. on.

What’s one thing you practice but don’t preach?
Do you have a busy week ahead?